Matt kissed her forehead like he used to and smiled. “Where are you staying normally?” He asked curiously.
Nat brightened instantly and automatically, unable to hold it in. Her smile was apparent, but she didn’t really care. “I bounce around. Mostly New York. I’ve got a number of safehouses that SHIELD doesn’t know about. I don’t like to stay in any of them for more than a day. Not…not now, anyway.”
“How about you stay here a few days?” Matt suggested and looked down at her with a smile and his lip in his mouth.
“Stay…here?” she repeated, caught off guard by the request. It seemed so ridiculous, but a part of her really wanted to stay. Not that she’d admit that. “Well, you’ll need someone to make sure you don’t hurt yourself further or rip open your healing wounds,” she justified.
Matt smirked. Always trying not to say whats on your mind. You haven’t changed and thank god for that. “Then tomorrow you and I will pick up whatever you need and go to the store and get whatever you want me to cook” Matt offered happily.
Nat chuckled, rolling her eyes playfully at the man. “If it’ll get you to shut up and go to sleep, then fine,” she smirked, poking him gently in the ribs. She felt an odd sense of warmth, one that hadn’t been there for some time.
Matt kissed her forehead like he used to and smiled. “Where are you staying normally?” He asked curiously.
Nat brightened instantly and automatically, unable to hold it in. Her smile was apparent, but she didn’t really care. “I bounce around. Mostly New York. I’ve got a number of safehouses that SHIELD doesn’t know about. I don’t like to stay in any of them for more than a day. Not…not now, anyway.”
“How about you stay here a few days?” Matt suggested and looked down at her with a smile and his lip in his mouth.
“Stay…here?” she repeated, caught off guard by the request. It seemed so ridiculous, but a part of her really wanted to stay. Not that she’d admit that. “Well, you’ll need someone to make sure you don’t hurt yourself further or rip open your healing wounds,” she justified.
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Matt kissed her forehead like he used to and smiled. “Where are you staying normally?” He asked curiously.
Nat brightened instantly and automatically, unable to hold it in. Her smile was apparent, but she didn’t really care. “I bounce around. Mostly New York. I’ve got a number of safehouses that SHIELD doesn’t know about. I don’t like to stay in any of them for more than a day. Not…not now, anyway.”
Matt pulled her in close and curled up with her. “I’ve missed you, Natasha…I know I shouldn’t be worried about you but I just…I hadn’t seen you in so long. I knew that you were happy with Bucky and I just…I really needed to know you were safe and ok” Matt explained.
She clenched her jaw at that, letting her eyes shut. It was true, she had been happy with James. But things didn’t work out. And that was fine. She was fine. “I’m always fine,” she whispered, glancing down at her hands. It had been a long period of happiness, probably the longest in her life, but it was over. That was that.
Matt frowned. “I’m so sorry…i said too much…I…” Matt heard her body react to Bucky’s name. He knew he overstepped his boundaries. Matt started to slowly release her so she could leave if she wanted. Stupid stupid stupid!
Shaking her head, she murmured, “No, it’s fine. You’re right. We were happy. But that part of my life is over now.” Her jaw clenched again and she almost felt as though she might cry, which was extremely odd for her. “I’m just…glad to be here,” Nat whispered, rubbing her thumb gently against his side, careful not to hit any of his cuts.
Matt drew her in close and laid on his back so her head was on his chest. “I’m glad you are here too, Natasha…more than you know”
Her smile was gentle; being in his arms was so familiar and yet still so odd. She couldn’t deny that she enjoyed it. Her body still seemed to fit with his so perfectly. “I don’t know where else I’d be,” she replied, her head resting on his chest carefully.
Matt pulled her in close and curled up with her. “I’ve missed you, Natasha…I know I shouldn’t be worried about you but I just…I hadn’t seen you in so long. I knew that you were happy with Bucky and I just…I really needed to know you were safe and ok” Matt explained.
She clenched her jaw at that, letting her eyes shut. It was true, she had been happy with James. But things didn’t work out. And that was fine. She was fine. “I’m always fine,” she whispered, glancing down at her hands. It had been a long period of happiness, probably the longest in her life, but it was over. That was that.
Matt frowned. “I’m so sorry…i said too much…I…” Matt heard her body react to Bucky’s name. He knew he overstepped his boundaries. Matt started to slowly release her so she could leave if she wanted. Stupid stupid stupid!
Shaking her head, she murmured, “No, it’s fine. You’re right. We were happy. But that part of my life is over now.” Her jaw clenched again and she almost felt as though she might cry, which was extremely odd for her. “I’m just…glad to be here,” Nat whispered, rubbing her thumb gently against his side, careful not to hit any of his cuts.
Matt pulled her in close and curled up with her. “I’ve missed you, Natasha…I know I shouldn’t be worried about you but I just…I hadn’t seen you in so long. I knew that you were happy with Bucky and I just…I really needed to know you were safe and ok” Matt explained.
She clenched her jaw at that, letting her eyes shut. It was true, she had been happy with James. But things didn’t work out. And that was fine. She was fine. “I’m always fine,” she whispered, glancing down at her hands. It had been a long period of happiness, probably the longest in her life, but it was over. That was that.
Matt looked over and without a word he scooted over and held Natasha. “I should have stayed in LA with you…None of this would have happened if I just stayed…”
“You can’t possibly blame yourself for any of this,” she whispered, resting her head on his chest. It wasn’t necessarily romantic, but Nat had never been more at ease in her life. “It doesn’t matter now. You’ve just got to make the best of the situation.”
Matt held her gently. “I know….I know I shouldn’t…but I don’t know what else to do, Natasha. I’m just trying to start anew”
She wrapped an arm extremely carefully over his chest, wary of his wounds and the placement of her arms. “The best way to start over is to forgive yourself,” Nat told him, her voice quiet as she spoke, only inches from his face.
Matt nodded and looked at her lips. This felt natural. After all these years she seemed to belong in his arms, in his bed, and in his heart. Matt leaned his head on her’s and lightly stroked up and down her sides. “I’m trying” He told her softly.
Nat smiled softly at how easy it was to forget everything else when they were together. She’d almost forgotten this feeling. But they weren’t. Together, that is. Friends. Friends can sleep in the same bed in each others arms. Totally normal. “Good,” she replied.
Matt looked over and without a word he scooted over and held Natasha. “I should have stayed in LA with you…None of this would have happened if I just stayed…”
“You can’t possibly blame yourself for any of this,” she whispered, resting her head on his chest. It wasn’t necessarily romantic, but Nat had never been more at ease in her life. “It doesn’t matter now. You’ve just got to make the best of the situation.”
Matt held her gently. “I know….I know I shouldn’t…but I don’t know what else to do, Natasha. I’m just trying to start anew”
She wrapped an arm extremely carefully over his chest, wary of his wounds and the placement of her arms. “The best way to start over is to forgive yourself,” Nat told him, her voice quiet as she spoke, only inches from his face.
Matt looked over and without a word he scooted over and held Natasha. “I should have stayed in LA with you…None of this would have happened if I just stayed…”
“You can’t possibly blame yourself for any of this,” she whispered, resting her head on his chest. It wasn’t necessarily romantic, but Nat had never been more at ease in her life. “It doesn’t matter now. You’ve just got to make the best of the situation.”
